I’m excited to see what this week brings as I approach the second half. Let’s dive in! 😊
Diary#
Day 15 - Monday#
Everything’s going okay so far, but today I went pretty hard with some toy I have — no release, of course. My balls were aching quite a bit afterward. The feelings using the toy where quite satisfying.
Day 16 - Tuesday#
Today, I was really feeling the vibe with women — exchanging glances here and there and just enjoying how many lovely ladies are out and about. 😊 Back home, I got the urge to mess around the toy but stopped a bit earlier to ease the ache in my balls. It worked well, and the goal was never in danger, though the thought of just letting go did cross my mind. That took some self-control, but it all went smoothly! 😄
Day 17 - Wednesday#
Pretty much like the days before—everything went fine, but I had quite a bit of action with the toy. I’m starting to wonder if indulging like this is such a good idea. Sometimes I felt little interest in women, but other times it was super high. It’s a bit unclear what the right approach is. Still, as they say, the journey is the destination!
Day 18 - Thursday#
Same vibe as yesterday—everything’s on track, but I leaned into the toy again. I’m still questioning if this is the best move, with my interest in women swinging between low and high. Not sure what the perfect balance is, but I’m sticking with it.
Then, I tried a breathing technique that reminded me a bit of The Way of the Superior Man by David Deida. I love these kinds of experiments, but sometimes I need a little guidance and motivation, so this video I found came at the perfect time:
It’s helping me relax and calming my body.
Day 19 - Friday#
Today was super easy, mostly because I was working long hours compared to usual and now feel pretty tired and wiped out. 😅 I spent some time doing the breathing exercises, which were really pleasant and helped me relax and calm my body. Tomorrow, I’m heading to Berlin for trauma therapy, and I’m excited for the trip! 😊